it's late...past 2 in the morning...sitting here, once again, wondering where I am going in all this....frankly, if I have to think about it, then something needs to change...I am wanting a man that will want me for me, not what I can give him....I am sick of the assholes...never really did like them. Never went for them or out with them...I was the type, still am, that loves the nice guy....there are a few out of a hundred, but for some reason, I always found the nice guys that turn bad....why do men have to be such assholes/dicks and lie about who they are? why can't they just say "hey...I cheat...stay away from me...I'm poison" that would save SO much time....and heartache.